These are my confessions, Man I'm thrown and I don't know what to do, I guess I gotta give part 2 of my confessions. If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all, Damn near cried when I got that phone call, I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do But to give you part 2 of my confessions.

I never thought I would ever miss high school...

EVER.

well. 

Confession one. 

I do. 

I just realized this.

I miss having short school hours..

I miss having so many people around me..

I miss the learning.. weird right?

I miss the life of being a kid..

[some of it..]

and the careless things...

most of all... 

I miss the boys.

(even if there were no cute ones... at least there were boys in my life...) 

after going to a school full of girls and the 2 gay boys.. 

I just really need some men in my life.  

I do have Mr. Chris Hooper.

and his posse every once in a while. 

they are super fun.  :]

but I need a man for me.. 

Chris is kinda taken. ish. hahaha 

but yes, 

boys are super great. :] 

I love themm.

Confession 2:

I have amazing friends. 

and I don't know what I would do without them.. 

Shelby Durrant my bestie.

[of course.]

she is an amazing person.

smart.

talented.

gorgeous.

funny. 

She is always there to listen! 

and is a great listener at that. 

she gives great advice.

and she so strong in the things that she goes through.

she just amazes me. 

she makes my life so much better and I am so glad she is in it. :] 

I love you Shibby. :]

next. 

Joshlyn Villa. 

This girl is hilarious! 

California cheerleader.

also gorgeous.

and outgoing. 

like really. 

Josie is not afraid to do anything. 

she usually makes a goal for the night. 

like to get the most attractive guys number that she sees that night..

yeah. 

she WILL do it. 

I envy her bravery. 

I'm so glad she is in my life.

she is an amazing person. 

I love you Jos. :]

next.

Whitney Meine.

wow, 

this girl.

she is pretty freaking rad. 

and lets not forget gorgeous.

I am so glad she is in my life. 

she helps me so much! 

she knows the pain I go through. 

and she helps me as much as possible to overcome it. 

I don't think she know it. 

but she does help me with so much. 

I love you Whit. :]

then theres 

Jonathan Lee Hatch.

he never believes me when I tell him he is my hero.

well. 

its now official. 

I'm blogging about it...

Jon is my hero. 

he is the most amazing boss ever.

he is smart. 

super funny.

understanding.

supportive.

chill.

kind.

and lets face it... 

gorgeous.

real attractive.

and super sexy. 

yep. all the above.

he is one of my best friends in the whole world. 

he knows some things about me that no one else knows.

he is awesome. 

and I am so very glad that he is in my life. 

I love you Hatchypoo. :]

I think that these people should know how much they mean to me.. 

because they sure do mean a whole freaking lot to me.

when I decided to quit school they were right there supporting me in my decision.

making sure its what I wanted. 

but they weren't forcing me to stay. 

they wanted me to do what makes me happy.

they are pretty freaking amazing people. 

and I would do anything for them. 

you guys are my world.

 Shibby's Santa Run. :]

Confession Three.

I miss Mikian Alamu Scott so much. 

and to be honest.. I don't think I will see her again. 

why does she have to be good at her job and get a promotion?? 

man oh man. 

I'm really hoping I will see her again. 

don't get me wrong. 

I'm happy that she got a promotion. 

thats great!

I just miss her a whole bunch. 

and! I think she told me she was planning on getting engaged this winter! 

so lets hope. :] 

that will be so great!

I love this women to death. 

Maybe I will save up some money so I can go to Ohio and see her. :] 

AHH! that would be so fun. :] 

and maybe Shelbs will wanna come too. :]

that will be even better. :] 

all three of us together again. :]

that would be epic. :]

I'm planning on it now. :] 

woo! :]

Kian also means so much to me. 

I love you Kian! :] 

I love you all.

Jessie Lyn.

Confessions part 2. Usher.

Beauty school dropout (Beauty school dropout), Hanging around the corner store. Beauty school dropout (Beauty school dropout), It's about time you knew the score. Well they couldn't teach you anything, You think you're such a looker, But no customer would go to you unless she was a hooker! Baby don't sweat it (Don't sweat it), You're not cut out to hold a job. Better forget it (Forget it), Who wants their hair done by a slob?

Whelp... 

I guess it's time for another blog post... 

It's been forever!

and well....

Big news....

I am a beauty school dropout... 

yep. 

thats right.

I'm a failure. 

I dropped out of BEAUTY SCHOOL... 

but I must say. 

it was a whole lot harder that I thought it was going to be... 

a lot of work. 

hard. 

tiring.

painful.

I liked it at first... 

I noticed really early that I didn't like it...

I told my friend 

Ashley Lauren Petersen

that I wanted to quit. 

that was real soon. 

she made me stay! 

I was there for her. 

then a few months later my school just got so retarded 

that even she couldn't even handle it.... 

so she quit. 

And I decided... 

if I was only there for her... 

and she isn't there anymore... 

why should I be there.. 

and whelp. thats that... 

I'm now done with Aveda. 

right in time too. 

If I had gone to school the next dayy... 

I would've had to pay the full sixteen thousand.. 

but because I quit the day before... 

I have to pay eight thousandd... 

yeahh.. still a lot..

but oh well.

I'm out of that Hell Hole.. and I guess thats all that really matters. 

right? 

For all the things you've ever dreamed. It could work out. So don't stress out. It will happen. If it's meant to be. So don't stress out. It could work out.

Okay well... 

my life is kinda on a crazy track right now... 

But gotta love it right? 

maybe?

I'm stressing about school.. 

mostly because I don't understand color... 

cutting is WAY harder than I thought...

I go on to the next phase is a couple of weeks...

which means I am on the floor doing real life peoples hair is about four weeks... 

and most of all... I feel like I don't know the things I need to know... and I'm NOT ready... 

it is so stressful..

like today, we were learning how to cut layers... 

yeah A LOT harder than you think...

and guess what...? 

yuppp.. I cut myself within the first... 10 minutes?? 

yeahh,,, with what you ask?? 

hmmm.. MY SCISSORS. 

how retarded am I? 

but that didn't hurt because it wasn't very bad... 

BUT! 

I have cried multiple times today because I am so stressed....

not just about school... 

But with work.... 

not because I am working too much with school and all...

I mean I work...

12-11 Mondays...

5-11 Tuesdays...

10-5 Fridays...

so I got like 24 hours in there...

but I feel like I am not working enough.. 

School is throwing me off... 

sometimes I go into work and help close... 

like I'll do the lobby... 

or pick chicken... unpaid... 

I guess it just helps me feel calmer in a way... 

and I feel like it is a place where I can always go...

[even if the people there don't appreciate it...]

especially because I have no life.

when my friends do... 

like Shelby and Britany...

gorgeous sisters...

[and don't forget the Fiancé Ryan Brown.]

are always doing something real fun. 

I love hanging out with them.

Shelby is probably the best friend I have ever had... 

and by probably... I mean she is. 

life is always great with them in it. 

BUT when you have school that goes forever long 

I don't always get to go to these things...

Which I'm okay with. 

Because they could probably use some time away from me

every once in a while... haha

but they are great friends! :] 

and I love them.

also. 

Jasmine Patten...

This pretty girl left me for college. 

Rude? 

I think yes. 

She is an AWESOME friend. 

It is really hard to go to all of church now.. 

I have no friends in my ward...

and you would think that since it is a singles ward I could make new friends...

yeahh.. nope.. I'd rather her just come back. 

I miss her dearly...

it makes me really sad that she is gone. 

and its a good thing she doesn't read my blog...

because she told me not to ever say that... hahah 

but yes.. I want her to come back. 

NOW!

please?

I really need to go down to Cedar City to see her... 

I just don't know when I would be able to because of school and work. 

hmmm.... 

I don't talk to anyone from high school... 

thats kinda depressing. 

but I guess that kinda happened before I ever even graduated...

and I mean I talked to people in school.. 

well except my photo 3 class... 

I just sat there is silence most of the time... 

and the class I was a Teachers Aid in.. 

and that other class.. 

okay.. 

I lied.. 

I didn't really then either... 

haha 

once graduation was over no one ever talked to me except Jasmine. 

yeah. She's real kind. haha

now the 2 people who read this know how lame I really am.. 

hahah! :] 

I guess I kinda knew that my friendship between 

Annie, Beka, and I wouldn't really last..

I do love these girls... 

but it was never us three.. 

it was Beka and Annie. 

and me. 

I don't know.. with them I am always the third wheel... 

fifth wheel...

no matter what they say it always happens. 

but... yeahhh. 

and we can't forget... 

MIKIAN ALAMU SCOTT.

I MISS HER SO MUCH! 

I can't even got over it. 

She left at the end of last summer... 

she moved back to Ohio.. 

she said that she was going to come visit in October. 

next month... I'm keeping my fingers crossed. 

she might not be able to though because she got promoted.. 

duty calls... right? 

basically if she doesn't come...  

I will cry. 

yes. 

Not only do I miss her.. but I miss last summer... period. 

it was a great summer!

MiKiAN ALAMU SCOTT. 

if you ever read this I just want you to know that I love you and miss you. 

okay and... 

almost every time I go into work my boss...

Jon Hatch... aka. Hatchy Poo

Scares the crap out of me... 

SO! today I went in after school and I picked chicken for Andy. 

because I am a kind person. 

sometimes...

then Hatchy Poo told me to go put something in the mailbox. 

so I did. 

which means that I left before him. 

I was walking to my car... 

and yes I look in the doors and he is heading towards them.

and he is talking to Ryan so he doesn't see me... 

so I decide to try and scare him... 

SUCCESS!! 

hahahah

I scared him so bad! 

it was EPIC! :] hahaha 

best thing ever. 

then he tries to lie and say he was faking. 

yeahh... nope. 

IT WAS GREAT! :] hahahha 

that was a great moment in my life. :] haha

anywayy. this post is real long... sorryyy.

cheers to the freaking weekend.

Jessie Lyn

You should be a model... I bet you hear that all the time got the body of a goddess face like an angel, girl I'm being honest I could see you up on the cover of a magazine!

alrighty, so... 

last Saturday at school we had our first models come in. :] 

I brought in the beautiful

Shelby Durrant. :] 

the first thing we had to do was a pedicure. :] 

I made the water too hot... 

and she couldn't even put her feet in for a while.... 

hahah oops...

the we did the manicure. :] 

I had to put this masque thing all over her hands and arms... 

It was kinda gross... 

and didn't come off very easy... 

BUT! 

I painted her nails and toenails this light orangey color. :] 

they were cute. 

after that we had lunch... 

we chose Zupas. well because Zupas is AMAZING! 

when we got back I gave her a hot towel facial and did her make-up. 

then we did a hair wash and a style. 

while I did all of this, 

she played on my iPad.

I curled it and I think it looked pretty cute. :]

but that was a good day at school! :] 

Cheers to the freaking weekend.

Jessie Lyn

Back to school, back to school, to prove to dad that I'm not a fool... I got my lunch packed up, my boots tied tight I hope I don't get in a fight....

alrightyyy, so... the past couple weeks have been crazyyy.

I went and I checked out Aveda Institute Provo.

I absolutely fell in love. 

so I decided to apply... 

and well you have to make a portfolio..

and some other things to even be considered... 

and all of this is due within a seven day period from the day you had your interview... 

my interview day was on a Saturdayy... 

and lucky for me... 

I worked doubles all week that next week.. 

so sadly I couldn't do my portfolio... 

unless I wanted to stay up all night then have to go work a double in the morning... 

then stay up to work on the portfolio.. then wake up for a double again..

 and so on.. 

yeahh, I say no thank you to that. 

so I didn't get it turned in by the deadline.  

I texted Tiffany during church that Sundayy, 

and I told her I have been crazy busy with work because it had been 

4th of July weekend... 

and KFC is always slammed that weekend.. 

and I was really sad that I didn't get it turned in. 

and she told me, 

"If you REALLY want this. I will still let you turn it in. "

I was so freaking excited! :] 

so she asked me when a good time for me to turn it in would be. 

so I told her Tuesday at Noon. 

so Monday {the forth} was crazy busy to get that done before I had to go into work. 

Luckily I got it done with the help of my AMAZING sister in law Kylee. :] 

she saved my life! :] 

so I went in and talked to her on Tuesday and she told me that I had been officially accepted 

to Aveda Institute Provo! 

Hallelujah! 

Then she told me... 

"I will see you in class next Wednesday!"

Fan- freaking -tastic.

right? 

yeah, very soon!

So today. 

My first day of school. 

CRAZY RIGHT? 

its like I'm a big kid.. 

but not...

lets start again...

Todayy, First day of school...

I already fell asleep...

yeah.. 

BAD!

but its not my fault... 

one. I hadn't woken up that early since New York... 

so a month ago... 

two. I was REALLY tired. like VERY. you know... 

like the times you are really tired and every time you move you get this funny feeling.. 

and everything feels like you are in a dream... 

but its really real life...?

yeah, that tired. :/

three. they turned the lights off.. thats their own fault... 

but It was only during the tardy and absence lectures.. so we are all good. :] hopefully.

anyway. school was great. LONG but great. 

it is every Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday from 9-7. 

It will be fantastic. :]

bring it on. :]

cheers to the freaking weekend.

Jessie Lyn

It's boots and chaps, It's cowboy hats, It's spurs and latigo, It's the ropes, and the reins, and the joy, and the pain, and they call the thing RODEO!

Last weekend it was the 

Strawberry Days Rodeo. 

My mother tells me I have been to a lot of Rodeo's.. 

[which is believable]

but I can't remember... 

so we are going to call this my first Rodeo. :]]

I went with a ton of friends...

but only got a couple pictures... 

 This is Shelby Durrant. :]] 

 This is Kimber Adamson.

 This is Whitney Meine.

 This is Amy Johnson.

yes, I would have gotten more... 

but Kimber and I here were really distracted on trying to find us some yummy cowboys...

unfortunately,

I could see very few attractive ones....

that were single at least...

no... all together not very many... 

LAME? 

yes. 

but its still all good... 

I will find myself a man sooner or later. :]] 

bahhaa :]]

hopefully that is. :]]

I had so much fun at the Rodeo. :]] 

cheers to the freakin weekend.

Jessie Lyn.

I want to wake up in the city that doesn't sleep... New York, New York

alrighty, 

so.. I was in New York this past week.

and I just gotta sayy.. 

AMAZING!

I want to move there. 

except I think I would get lost on all the subways...

and they were very dirtyy.. 

and stinky.. 

let me tell ya... 

New York has some VERY funky smells. ;]

we were on the redeye flight to New York on Friday night..

and me being me... 

I can't sleep in cars... 

or on airplanes.. 

or anything else... 

so I didn't sleep the whole way there. 

we arrive in New York at about five thityy in the AM...

get to our hotel 

[[Millenium Broadway Hotel right in Times Square]]

at about six in the AM...

our check in wasn't until four... 

so we decided to go out. 

The first thing we did was 

Central Park. 

and if you don't know how big Central Park is...

well.. It's HUGE.

I think about 7 miles long... and 2 miles wide... 

yeahh. BIG!

Anywayy.. we went to Strawberry Fields.

and if you don't know what that is...

well dare to listen to The Beatles...

anywhoo..

We were walking through Strawberry Fields and we came across this...

this is here so we remember John Lennon.

and his song Imagine.

[[I think...]]

BUT!!!

It's a great song. :]]

I was half asleep on this dayy so everything is a blurr...

but if I wasn't half asleep... 

then I would have heard all of the tour guides telling their groups 

the story about it as they passed by it... 

while my family and I sat there and people watched for about... 

an hour or more... 

we were so dead that first dayyy.

this is where John Lennon lived...

and he was also shot in this building...

but yes... a blurr of a dayy...

so the next day was 

Sundayy. 

we went to a Yankees game. :] 

Yankees vs. Indians

and yes, 

I LOVE THE YANKEES!! :]]

and yes, they won. :]]

this is a picture in Times Square...

On Monday 

we went to

David Letterman.

we were really hoping Ryan Reynolds would be on our episode recording...

because look at him... 

I mean, He's a FREAKING BABE!

and I love him with all of my heart.

but, nope... 

he was on Tuesday nights episode... 

sadly... 

we got this boring admiral guy...

Mike Mullen...

but heyy, it was free... 

next, we went to go see the 

temple! :]]

it was so interesting... 

it's a church... 

the distribution center...

and a temple... 

all in one... :]] 

I'm pretty sure there was something else that was there...

I just can't remember...

but it was cool. :]]

then we went to Ladder 10. 

The Fire Department that helped with 9-11.

and we saw the new World Trade Center being built...

This may not look very tall.. 

but at this point.. 

it is very tall... 

and they still have to put another one of those on top.. 

they are going to be HUGE!

now the Statue of Liberty.

unfortunately, 

we didn't get to go up it because 

all the times we could have gone they were sold out... 

so this is the closest we got... :[[

 It was so pretty...

This is New Jersey... :]]

That night we walked across the Brooklyn Bridge.

Again.... 

SO PRETTY!

my camera doesn't work so great... 

but hopefully you can just imagine how pretty! 

:]]

This is my sister Lyndsey, me, and my mother. :]] 

We walked down to this AMAZING pizza place afterwords called...

Grimaldi's Pizzeria.

This was probably the best pizza I have ever had. 

AMAZING. :]]

There is always a line out the door to get in. 

Thats how good it is. :]]

On Tuesday 

we went and entered the lottery to try and win Wicked tickets..

yeah, no luck. :[[ 

so that night we went to another Yankees game! :]]

Yankees vs. Rangers

it was great fun. :]

well because 

1. I love baseball...

2. I love baseball players...

and 

3. I LOVE THE YANKEES! :]]

need I say more?

I think not. :]]

and yes, 

in case you were wondering... 

they won! :]]

Wednesday...

our last day. :[[ 

very sad. 

we went to enter the lottery for Wicked Tickets again.

and this time... My fathers name got called! :]]

we won 2 tickets to 

WICKED! :]]

 The day before we had bought 2 tickets 

just in case we didn't win the lottery. 

so now we have 4 tickets...

there are 6 of us...

oh no... who's going to go??

well me of course... 

since this was my trip to begin with...

and I'm the one who wanted to see it the most in the first place...

and Kenny, because he bought his ticket... :]]

so now how do we decide who else gets the last 2 tickets?

well...

my parents are so kind and told my brother Steven, and my sister Lyndsey that they can go. :]]

so I am freaking out because I'm so excited! 

I've wanted to see this for so long! :]]

and welll... 

is was the BEST musical EVER!

like I don't even have any words for it....

PHENOMENAL! 

I loved it with all my heart! :]]

and I am going to see it again when it comes to Salt Lake next summer. :]

After Wicked get over, we have to rush to get to the airport. 

sadly, the awesome trip to New York has ended... :[[

I WILL GO BACK! 

I'm determined. 

back in boring ol' Utah... 

[[smells a whole lot better... but super boring...]]

cheers to the freakin weekend.

Jessie Lyn.